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Hello 2021!

With the new year comes the new me! Or the old me…. not quite sure which lol. What I am sure of is that the dark cloud I’ve had above my head these past 5 years is finally lifting and I’m beginning to see the FULL sky… and it is sunny, and bright, and beautiful!


For those of you that don’t know, I’ve suffered from depression for a few years now. Mental health should always be at the top of our list for keeping in check and when I became a mother I put myself at the bottom of that list. So much so that I was even willing to try and work things out when I found out my fiance was cheating on me. Thank the gods it only took him a few weeks to move in with someone else lol the complete opposite to me – the final straw from which we could never return.


Parenthood wasn’t at all what it cracked up to be. I had always assumed I’d be an absolute natural at motherhood. I loved cooking, I loved cleaning, I loved kids! I was in my 30’s and most of my friends had kids so I was no stranger to babies. I had a time frame, I had an ‘image’ in my mind of the things I wanted to achieve which I carefully ticked off my list throughout my years of travelling and serving my country in the Navy. I WAS READY. What I would soon realise is that the reality of being a parent 24/7 is VERY different than being a playmate for a few hours or a night to your friends children. Looking after a life, surviving on ZERO sleep, recovering from an emergency C-Section (after 26 hours of labor might I add!), WAS NOT FUN. And I chose to do it with a partner who did not by all means bring out the best in me. He managed to keep his priorities in check no problems – enough said.


Getting over a broken heart is hard enough when all you have to think about is yourself. Add in a baby, postnatal depression due to the shock of pregnancy, labor and motherhood…. and a partner that did not support me in the ways that I needed. I’m so grateful that I’ve had such amazing help from my parents – without them I don’t know how I would have survived. My dad has been my saving grace! There are some good men in this world lol.

Now – 4 years on…. I find myself feeling like ME again. Dressing like ME again. Putting effort into the way I look, the way I speak and having energy to actually do those simple things I couldn’t do for so long! Living in a dark hole wanting to bury yourself is a horrid thing to experience. I can understand why people turn to drugs and alcohol to cope with life… I’m so grateful that my choice of poison to cope is ART!

I never realised that in motherhood I would learn more about myself than anything else. How much I could keep going even though I didn’t want to. How much I could handle constant repetitive LOUD screaming, crying and whinging ALL NIGHT LONG for years. And most of all how I could do it ALL ON MY OWN!

Now it’s time to rebuild myself, my life, and turn into the mother I always wanted to be. After all it’s in the darkness that we grow the most!

So watch out world…. HERE I COME!

Regards,

Jessy.

Thank you for taking the time to read and sharing in my journey. Below is afew links to some YouTube tutorials I’ve been working on lately. You can also connect with me on FB, Instagram and Tik Tok.

Watercolour crayon FLOWER TUTORIAL
How to blend a RAINBOW love heart
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Self Isolation begin #stayathome #coronavirus

March 23rd was the official start of our lockdown here in NSW, Australia. Shops closed at midday. Cafe’s and restaurants are only allowed to do deliveries. Cinemas and casino’s all closed. Thousands of people lost their jobs. We are indeed living in a crazy time!

My morning was spent finishing up a guidebook on Shrinkie Dinks and uploading a new YouTube video. Then my daughter and I managed to get out the old Wii and set it up. Can’t believe it still works!!!

This whole self isolation thing is going to take some getting use to. I’m an introvert, and a home body.. so staying home for me is EASY. My 4 year old isn’t quite the same. Ayla hates being at home for longer than a couple hours. So I’m going to have to think of new and fun things to do with her. I don’t want her sitting on technology for a large chunk of the day. Going to think up some sort of schedule that includes exercise, education, cooking, games and fun with our animals.

Any advice and tips from school teachers welcome! Comment below.

Looks like I’ll be writing blog posts more often now…… will definitely have the time for it! lol. My days will now he starting at 5am so I can connect with all you beautiful people for a couple hours before bub wakes up… xxx

Until next time my beautiful peeps… stay home and keep safe xox

Shrinkie Dink Guidebook: https://www.etsy.com/au/listing/775049066/shrink-art-guidebook-shrinkie-dinks?ref=shop_home_active_1

Shrink plastic art – fun to do with kids.

OTHER YOUTUBE VIDEOS:

How to use dotting tools – https://youtu.be/m1BaKr_5jm4

Mandala swishes – see how I do my swishes – https://youtu.be/-XKxQ4nkdAY

Dot mandala flowers and patterns (time lapse) – https://youtu.be/GzR488dVkN0

How to draw dot mandala flower guidelines – https://youtu.be/JF2_suYT7rA

How to bend your dotting tools – https://youtu.be/-ocpHJVM0jY

How to do a simple dot mandala using household items – https://youtu.be/F4nDndEt0hA

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